Reactive Attachment Disorder Blog

12/03/07

Dancing daughters and disgruntled daughters

Posted by : Nancy Spoolstra in Reactive Attachment Disorder Blog at 08:46 am , 437 words, 257 views  
Categories: My family
Greetings from Kansas, where there’s no place like home! After sloshing around in wet snow, ice and windy conditions in St. Paul, Minnesota last weekend, I arrived home last night in time to rock a couple of girls before bed. The roads were a bit scary around St. Paul, but not bad after I was halfway to Des Moines.


Steph and I had a wonderful time. We slept in on Saturday and then spent all afternoon at Caribou coffee, eating bagels, drinking lattes and doing our respective work. She read the Bible in ancient Greek; I struggled with the ATN database and wrote donor letters. After that, we had dinner at Olive Garden, where she was 3 days short of getting a Chocolate Amore with alcohol. From there we did a little quick shopping and then went to see Enchanted.


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Sunday morning I watched her dance with her troupe from Bethel University. Wow. I reflected on all those years of watching gymnastics routines (and taping feet and knees and inhaling ibuprofen) as I watched her graceful moves in time to a live band playing Christian music, before a live audience. Too cool. I was so proud of her!


Beth had a championship meet all weekend and she did great. She beat many of her personal times. Dora complained about the boring weekend and clamored to talk on the phone to me every time someone called. Dora professed to miss me greatly, but when I arrived last night, she ignored me. Been there, done that. This child hears every door beep and garage door opening that ever occurs in this household, but last night she expected me to believe she didn’t hear my arrival. I called her on it and expressed my belief that it must be a pretty scary feeling to realize her heart was becoming connected to mine, whether she liked it or not. She punished me for the rest of the brief night we had together, and again this morning. More fodder for therapy, no doubt. Her therapy assignment this week is to figure out what to do with her anger, and the tip given to her by the therapist was to try to figure out who really is the target of her anger. By her own assessment, she is a two on a scale of ten in terms of how much she is working on her life.


I will be blogging less this month as I kick back a little bit and have more fun. Coming up next is another story of foster care abuses in Missouri.

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Photo Credit Nancy Spoolstra, media mom

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Comment from: Chromesthesia [Member] Email
Did you like Enchanted?
It had me almost skipping out of the theatre.
PermalinkPermalink 12/03/07 @ 10:26
Comment from: Nancy Spoolstra [Member] Email · http://attachment-disorder.adoptionblogs.com/
Yes, and my nearly 21-year-old daughter was cackling away next to me.
PermalinkPermalink 12/03/07 @ 10:51
Comment from: Bippette [Member] Email
Nancy - I wanted to get your take on something that happened with J last week. This is taken from the Older Children board.

J and I actually had a more "normal" "typical" teen son/mother fight last night.

To make a long story short, he had a friend over. I started teasing him about something (his friend was still there), and I inadvertently hurt his feelings.

This was the first time in three months that he actually displayed any negative emotions with me. Usually he sulls up and withdraws. Well not last night. He told me that I embarrassed him in front of his friend....that he wasn't ever bringing friends over to the house again. He added in a few more hurtful things that are too difficult to explain.

By the time he had is say, we BOTH had hurt feelings.

I told him that I was sorry. I tried to model for him how to make up with someone when you were in the wrong. And I was....I started it.

He doesn't have the emotional maturity to do the same. I told Coach he was going to have to help me lick my wounds later today when we have some alone time.

I remember last night, I actually started crying when I told him I was sorry and that he'd hurt my feelings too. He told me "It's cool." His way of saying apology accepted, I guess. It was quiet for a few minutes, and then he says "I said 'It's cool' so why are you still crying?" I told him just doesn't work that way. That my feelings don't just switch off and on that quickly.

Coach says I should view it as a good thing. That you don't display anger with someone unless you trust them. That he'd never shown anger and emotion with me before because he was afraid I'd kick him out.

He says that your feelings don't get hurt unless you HAVE feelings for someone.
PermalinkPermalink 12/03/07 @ 12:56
Comment from: rebrev [Member] Email
I, too, have to go back to Enchanted. I wanted to skip out of the theatre also. It was tough watching it with two teen age girls who, when asked about the movie afterwards, ignored the question. After returning home, I was babbling to my husband about the movie and my favorite scene, the one in Central Park with everyone dancing and singing, and the steel drums following along. It was the best fun.
PermalinkPermalink 12/03/07 @ 15:02
Comment from: Chromesthesia [Member] Email
That was one of my favourites too. I was giggling the whole time, especially when the guy was like, "He knows the song too?"
PermalinkPermalink 12/03/07 @ 18:47
Comment from: SunnyAndrsn [Member] Email
Hey, I warned you about the weather, but it sure is pretty now! Sounds like a great weekend. Dora's comment reminds me of our 15 year old foster son, who when arriving home from respite, greeted me with "I don't want you to read too much into this or anything, but I ALMOST missed you." It's the closest thing we've gotten to affection from him.
PermalinkPermalink 12/03/07 @ 20:37
Comment from: Kelly [Member] Email · http://fost-adopt.adoptionblogs.com
Steph looks beautiful as usual. I wish I could have seen it. I'm glad the two of you had fun, and sorry for Dora being a pill when you got back. Nothing like being punished for enjoying yourself.
PermalinkPermalink 12/03/07 @ 21:31
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